*sigh*

you know. it is so hard. so so so hard than i can imagine before. even to start thinking someone else, even to open my heart to someone else. it's not easy like we started. losing someone was always painful. I must be realized and must be adapt with new different condition, different feeling, different atmosphere.

It just, ya there a place that you are not stayed at that place again.

I don't know what I want right now, I don't know what I suppose to do right now, because everytime I realize, everytime I remembering you.

everytime start to texting and clear the text, everytime looking for your number and ready to call, I cancel that. this is too difficult to tell. but, i miss you suddenly.